Who I was...
No one to be found, the reason why I named this page "The Past" was because of a situation I was in some time ago (incarceration). Now, there I was in jail and I can remember thinking, here I am (again) not to mention all alone, and never took the time to understand what this was really happening and what it would mean in the years to come. At times we believe that the trials and tribulation that falls upon us rather it be the lost of a job, love one, illness, the end of a relationship or whatever it maybe that bring us to tears. We tend to think we're in it alone, and let me tell you this right now, YOU'RE NOT!
Think about it for a second, what about those that have been hurt do to our wrong doing and/or absence? Yes, they're hurting as well, God knows I've hurt others in ways that you can't even imagine. I say this not to dwell on the past because God will forgive us if we ask him with a true heart but, "we must forgive", Yes that's what I said. We're quick to ask others and God to forgive us, but what about those that have done us wrong? They deserve to be forgiven as well, but we must first learn to forgive ourselves.
For if you forgive men when they sin against you, your heavenly father will also forgive you. But if you do not forgive men their sins
Matt 6:14
Who I was? My brothers and sisters please allow me to confess to you I was someone far different from who I am now. One of the things that holds us back is the wrong we've done to ourselves as well as others, you may be saying " Murray, you don't know all what I've done" and you maybe right, I don't know. So we'll start with who I was, I've told the biggest lies, manipulated, deceived, womanizer, pimp, drug dealer, violent, thief, deadbeat father, said horrible things to my Mother and Father, fought with my Brothers and other family members. We're not going to even talk about how many times I went to jail, I was homeless, self centered, selfish, hateful, proudful, I mean I was just a wicked person. I didn't care about anyone not even myself, I hated being who I was so much I've even tried suicide, and let me just say "thank you Lord that didn't go through".
But little did I know a change was coming, and in a big way.
"A people without the knowledge of their past history, origin and culture is like a tree without roots". -
Marcus Garvey
Think about it for a second, what about those that have been hurt do to our wrong doing and/or absence? Yes, they're hurting as well, God knows I've hurt others in ways that you can't even imagine. I say this not to dwell on the past because God will forgive us if we ask him with a true heart but, "we must forgive", Yes that's what I said. We're quick to ask others and God to forgive us, but what about those that have done us wrong? They deserve to be forgiven as well, but we must first learn to forgive ourselves.
For if you forgive men when they sin against you, your heavenly father will also forgive you. But if you do not forgive men their sins
Matt 6:14
Who I was? My brothers and sisters please allow me to confess to you I was someone far different from who I am now. One of the things that holds us back is the wrong we've done to ourselves as well as others, you may be saying " Murray, you don't know all what I've done" and you maybe right, I don't know. So we'll start with who I was, I've told the biggest lies, manipulated, deceived, womanizer, pimp, drug dealer, violent, thief, deadbeat father, said horrible things to my Mother and Father, fought with my Brothers and other family members. We're not going to even talk about how many times I went to jail, I was homeless, self centered, selfish, hateful, proudful, I mean I was just a wicked person. I didn't care about anyone not even myself, I hated being who I was so much I've even tried suicide, and let me just say "thank you Lord that didn't go through".
But little did I know a change was coming, and in a big way.
"A people without the knowledge of their past history, origin and culture is like a tree without roots". -
Marcus Garvey
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